Creepy Baby Eyes

18 Weeks

There's been lots of changes this week. The most noticeable of them all is your eye hand coordination skills. You are now able to grab something with your hand and bring it to your mouth. I've been giving you your teething toys because you seem to like munching on things including your fingers.

There are times when you are trying your darnedest to fit both fists and your soother at the same time. Of course it hasn't worked out in your favour as of yet but that doesn't stop you from trying.

The other night I woke up to a very loud sucking noise but I was so exhausted I thought I must be dreaming it so I went right back to sleep. But the noise continued and my mind started to incorporate the noise into my dreams so once again I awoke. I looked around the bed room but there was nothing I could place the noise to. Not until I glanced over at the video monitor and saw you staring right at me. You were wide awake, fist in mouth, head cocked back ward to get a better look, and staring straight into the video camera in your crib. The loud sucking noise was you trying to inhale your hand through your mouth! It was so loud. But you were totally content just laying there staring at the camera, sucking away.

I woke your father up to watch the entertaining scene before me. The camera has a night option so it turns everything into shades of white and black. It's a little creepy sometimes, because your eyes are completely black with white centers. So of course you freaked your father out a little. He looked into the monitor and said "uh, that's really creepy. How does he know where the camera is and why is he looking at it!?" I was pretty sure that you were not actually staring at the camera because you knew we were on the other side. I'm fairly certain you were looking at the green light on the camera while entertaining yourself with your fingers. So there you were, fingers rammed into your mouth, staring at us with your creepy black eyes, whilst we stared back and low and behold you put yourself back to sleep! You went to sleep on your own! You have never done that! Babies don't know how to relax themselves and fall asleep. They have to be taught! But not you! I was so excited! Of course you haven't done it again since... but it's a start.

You graduated from your swimming class. You were so excited to be there the other day that while we were in the change room putting your bathing suit on you were giggling so loud a little girl in the next cubicle was laughing and telling her mom that there was a happy baby in the change room. Happy was an understatement.

I started you on a bed time schedule to help us all get to bed sooner and with as little anger and screaming as possible. You are getting increasingly vocal, let alone difficult about going to bed. So at 9:00 you have a nice long warm bath, followed by a massage, dressed in your PJ's, swaddled tight, fed and put to sleep. The first night was full of angry screams, the second night only a slight vocalisation of discontentment and every night since instant sleep. It's been great! You don't fight it any more. You feed, close your eyes and allow yourself to be rocked to sleep. Hopefully soon enough I will be able to just put you to bed and you'll fall asleep on your own. Speaking of sleep... I'm pooped!

I Love Blanket

14 weeks

You're growing and changing at such an incredible rate. It seems so fast and yet so slow. It's so strange to experience sometimes. Your growing out of all your clothing before you even get to wear some of them. You have the cutest little baby boobies from all the baby fat you've packed on. You've discovered in the past 2 weeks that you have hands and how much you love to shove them into your mouth. You're hands are always covered in slimy saliva not to mention that you've stopped swallowing and have taken up drooling. So I'm constantly covered in baby drool. Soon enough you will be grabbing at things. I can slowly see you developing the realization that you can hold things in your hands, only you haven't grasped how to go about doing it just yet. You do however grab your blankets and pull them up to your face. You love to snuggle up in your blankets when you're sleepy and when you pull them up to your face you smile and wiggle with contentment, which makes me laugh to myself because to this day I do the very same thing. There is nothing better then the feeling of jumping into a warm cozy bed while pulling your blankets up to your nose as you squirm about to get comfy and relax your muscles. You seem to share this same appreciation for blankets.

We've put you into swimming lessons once we realized how much you love the water. I would put you into the bath tub and you would toss your limbs around in every direction, leaving very little water in the tub and drenching me. So you've been in swimming lessons for 4 weeks now. You have cute little Hawaiian swimming trunks with palm trees on them. You are the youngest in the group and quite possibly the cutest. Daddy and I get in the pool with you and you thrash around while on your back, or you just lay there and relax while taking in the scenery. This past week we dunked you for the very first time. You came up with a very shocked look on your face while looking at me for comfort and if I hadn't been laughing at you and cheering you might have started to cry but seeing as daddy and I were so excited for you, you calmed down and realized everything was ok.

I'm always watching you. You fascinate me. Your giant blue eyes, soft pink cheeks, pouty little lips and long luscious eye lashes captivate me. I just want to squeeze you and smother you in kisses. I can tell already that I will try to bend the world to suit your fancy. I only want you to be happy. I've been told several times to keep you up all day so you will sleep all night. But you get so miserable when you are tired and my response to them is "I'd rather loose a few hours of sleep every night then have him be unhappy during the day because he's tired" Besides, I understand what it's like to be tired and unhappy. I'm not a happy camper when I'm lacking sleep. Ask your father... he'll verify that fact with ease. So you and I will be afternoon nappers. We'll sleep together, snuggled up with the blankets to our noses in the warmth of the afternoon sun and we'll love every minute of it.